But the truth is I know she's just playing with sounds and trying out new words. When she pronounced "Chloe" as "Lola" I thought, "Hmm. That's odd." She's been calling me "Lala" lately. That's what the babies call my sister so I've been trying to put a stop to that. But this morning was just too much. My mind went to that place...the sister she should be babbling with...the twin she'll never experience. I hate feeling that way and having those thoughts. I wish I didn't have to.
There's a set of identical twins on Solana's soccer team this year. I've taken to referring to them "the sisters" and it somehow makes me feel better.
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Oh, honey. I hate that feeling too. The missing other half. Especially when others have what we are missing. I wonder if it will ever not hurt when I see id twins. OR twin girls in general.
I'm sorry Cyndi
Thinking about you.
{{HUGS}}
You only THINK that she is practicing her sounds.... :)
I am finally starting to believe that living in the twin capital of the world may have been good for me. I mean.... it's ABSOLUTELY HEARTWRENCHINGLY AWFUL, but.... at some point, I was forced to callous over a little. It's either that or throw myself over a bridge. But when you see 8 sets of twins and a set of triplets regularly in the neighborhood...
I was supposed to go to that ID twin baby shower tonight. We have a conflict and I can't make it anymore. I'm relieved. I can finally handle being around my friend herself (most of the time), but I was never sure that I could survive the OTHER guests and their twin-gushing....
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